I should have known that the peace around me was too good to be true! Things were going so well in my quiet solitude and then she just had to come! She was gone for so long why could she not have stayed away? I can not even fathom why she would come seek out my counsel? She should have known I would not find her presence welcoming! If there was a single Immortal I could name that I would love to never see again for the length of my existence, it would be her!
Zenobia. If there was ever a name that sounded bitter and sweet on my tongue, Zenobia is it! That female has caused me a great deal of grief! I never wanted her in my life but of course as things go she was forced upon me anyway.
Oh the memories she left me! She toyed with me, making me think as though she loved me! The way she were speak in that soft voice, telling me how she admires me. Her touch on my arm leading me around to show me whatever new excitement caught her attention. Her eyes looking upon my face so adoringly! All of it sheer nonsense!
Her betrayal cut me to the deepest part of my being! Running off with Avicus and leaving me! How did she think it would make me feel? Did she actually expect me to sit about and wait for her return? I am not some kind of lap dog that sits by the door awaiting his masters return home! Not especially when you run off with no word as to why or where you are going! Certainly not!
Now she returns after such a long absence expecting me to succumb to her words and act as though nothing happened. Oh sure, yes let us run off together hand in hand like childhood sweethearts! Bah! One should never assume I will forget such past indiscretions! Least of all her! She dares ask me for help even! It is beyond me as to why she would imagine I would desire to help her! Help her find Avicus! She surely must be mad! One would figure she'd already know where the fool is anyway!
I will help her alright, help her find her way out my door and far away from me! If that means locating Avicus I think I can stomach it, for a little while. Then they can run off again and leave me in peace!
July 18 2005, 18:34:56 UTC 6 years ago
Damn... do you think I came back to make you suffer? If I came back it is because I want things to change! I do not want to be alone anymore... times have changed, as same as me. I have changed enough to realize you cannot be alone forever! Come on, think, if you are as wise as you say you are, think, for God's Sake!
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July 22 2005, 17:25:43 UTC 6 years ago
July 22 2005, 18:20:47 UTC 6 years ago
Tell me... could I go visit you soon?
July 23 2005, 09:35:31 UTC 6 years ago
July 23 2005, 17:53:54 UTC 6 years ago
July 18 2005, 21:33:40 UTC 6 years ago
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Sorry things aren't going well. It will work out, and you'll be left in peace again. I hope things get better for you. oh and Zenobia his heart ISN'T dead!July 19 2005, 18:13:31 UTC 6 years ago
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I already know it. Of course Mael's heart is not dead... I am sure of that... right, Mael?July 22 2005, 02:03:57 UTC 6 years ago
Blessed Be
Lilith.